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Hello

I haven't experienced what you have been through. That is pretty rough to go through that at an early age. I did find two domestic violence centers and perhaps a call to them can put you in touch of someone to talk to about your concerns. 

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And if you need free medical clinic see the link below.

I don't know if there will be anything here but you can look

 http://www.freemedicalcamps.com/vcity.php?stateid=MO

I hope you can find the life you want to live

Starshine

To be honest, I am not sure where/how to start. I guess I truly have NO ONE to vent to; I fell madly in love with my sons father when I was barely 17 and he was just 18. We met in school and were inseperable from day 1. Now, close to a decade later we have a 2yr old and we've been in turmoil for years now! Years of pyschological and extreme physical/sexual abuse has pushed my mind so far gone its devastating! I threw ALL my friends away(literally)each day pushing what family I have further away ;( I have been on/off meds for years running place to place to hide from him-it wouldnt be a problem if he would STOP THE ABUSE but, Ive lost myself and wish I was the mother I told myself Id always be! ALL excuses aside I wouldve vanished years ago but I got pregnant. At first it was alright until he hit me nearly breaking my jaw when I was 5mos prego... also not knowing ALL these years he had been running around and has admitted to at least 100 girls maybe more. Now, Im 23 have HPV and herpes2. The HPV has caused severe scarring and in the last 2 years of treatment 6 golfball to softball size squamous cell tumors have been removed. I have not, will not, and cant get close to anyone for all the knowledge of how horrible people can be and what Ive been diagnosed with ;(...where do I start? How do I stop struggling to keep my chin up everyday with the biggest most fake smile/lifestyle one could posess?! Its not lack of love for my son by any means, just lack of love for myself and Im exhausted of being jaded youth. I wanted a huge family, wedding, bestfriend/lover/companion and Im everything I never thought Id be...please help me with some advice. P.S. I DONT FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF OR WANT PITY! Just help, a friendly voice, common ground with anyone who has shared similiar events. Im sorry so long I felt the urge to not be a coward and finally shed a little light about myself.

So sorry to hear about what you are going thru.I suffer from Panic Attacks and Bi-Polar also.I am in Houston,Texas and we have a program called MHMRA(Mental Health Mental Retardation Association)Before i got my disability,i was seeing a Psych. Dr. thru them and my meds were free(I was unemployed)Do you by chance have something like that where you live.?Good luck and don't give up!!Things will get better!

Best wishes 

https://www.pparx.org/Intro.ph p try this if you can see your doctor it may help with the cost of your meds. Also, you can ask for samples from the doctor or pharmacy, depends on the state you live in probably. Your in my prayers.

THANK YOU THANK YOU i will try and let you know if they accept me. THANKYOU GOD BLESS!

zen~ Try the link below. You can get your meds directly from the manufacturer free or low cost. There is some paper work to fill out but it is minimal and your doctor does need to sign for it but you will get a 3 month supply for your meds which will be sent directly to your doctor and you can pick up right at the office. In the mean time, ask your doctor for SAMPLES. They get tehm from the drug reps and can give you enough to get you through until your supplies come in from the manufacturer. Also, your primary doctor might be able to get the samples for you as well check with both your shrink and primary doctor, explain your situation and ask what they can do for you.
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zen~ Try the link below. You can get your meds directly from the manufacturer free or low cost. There is some paper work to fill out but it is minimal and your doctor does need to sign for it but you will get a 3 month supply for your meds which will be sent directly to your doctor and you can pick up right at the office. In the mean time, ask your doctor for SAMPLES. They get tehm from the drug reps and can give you enough to get you through until your supplies come in from the manufacturer. Also, your primary doctor might be able to get the samples for you as well check with both your shrink and primary doctor, explain your situation and ask what they can do for you.
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